Because we are taking the bear back, I am trying to finish some Christmas stocking stuffers that I have not gotten done yet. Yes, this is my life. I all but decided that I need to start working a little bit each week on Christmas for the year instead of the month. It may be more successful. Even after I finish this bit, there is one last piece I wish to finish. Then, I will start again.
This whole month has been this way for me. I find that I feel like I am a crazy person for all I do. Instead of picking up mustard from the store, I ferment my own. Instead of buying what, I make what. But then, I "sit" myself down (actually, I am usually working on something) and think about my actions. Think about where my life is, where I wished my life to be long ago, and where it is going.
There is very little I would wish to change. I always wanted to life off grid, making everything for myself. I wanted to live in southeast Alaska. When I am telling myself I am a crazy person, I admit to myself that within the parameters that my life is currently, I am living the life I wanted. I think part of it is that I am already missing Koda bear. Who is really not so small anymore. I am getting as many hugs and whale kisses as I can so I can store up.